Days like today I just want everyone to fuck off. Sorry to be blunt but that’s real life. I don’t have my own life, not fully, it’s dictated to me. Some might say that is my fault & I could change it if I wanted to which isn’t necessarily true. Yes, I could stop going … Continue reading stop the world I want to get off!!!!
Tag: Anxiety
Mushrooms & death
The man in the white van was waiting for her, waiting for an opportunity to kill her. Earlier she had seen the Nun from the nearby Covent, she was carrying a gun under her habit. The postman days before had tried to get into her flat, he had banged on her window demanding she let … Continue reading Mushrooms & death
What is it like inside an asylum?
We don’t call them asylums anymore but we may as well. The name asylum fits the description so much better than ‘ward’. A ward to me symbolisms a hospital type place with clean washed floors, neatly made beds & patients sitting in chairs next to them, or tucked up with clean white sheets up around … Continue reading What is it like inside an asylum?
Mental illness? Pull yourself together & trust me!!!
When someone is constantly anxious it becomes the new norm. But it also takes it out of the person with them. I have been guilty of telling my mum to ‘Pull herself together’ on numerous occasions. I feel absolutely shit for saying this! I only have to look on the face of the cartoon characters … Continue reading Mental illness? Pull yourself together & trust me!!!
What helps YOU get through a loved ones mental illness? Do you have guilt?
In the beginning I was constantly on auto pilot 👩✈️ it wasn’t by choice, it was just how my brain was deciding to manage it all. When you have a loved one trying to escape from the house, run into the road & harm themselves at every opportunity, being on auto pilot is all you can … Continue reading What helps YOU get through a loved ones mental illness? Do you have guilt?
What will mental illness look like today?
I never know what I will be faced with from one day to another. One day I could open the door to find a very anxious, frightened, shaky pale looking mum, the next I could find her attempting a genuine smile with lippy applied. One of the most difficult things about this illness is it … Continue reading What will mental illness look like today?
Has your life driven you mad?
Have you ever had the feeling like someone has scribbled all over your brain? If not, just imagine your brain ticking along nicely, with clear thoughts, good head space & great perceptive & then all of a sudden thousands of tiny little brain people come out from their crevices armed with marker pens & scribble … Continue reading Has your life driven you mad?
Help? What help??
So you've been diagnosed, or a loved one has been diagnosed, or you have a loved one showing signs of a metal illness, what do you do next? who do you turn to? This was the dilemma I was faced with. After having spent two days in France trying to find my mum & eventually locating her in the … Continue reading Help? What help??
Anxiety is for wimps
Fuck fuck fuck!!! fuck anxiety! FUCK IT!!! I never had anxiety before all this. I was pretty manic as that is my character but anxiety was something weak people had, not me. It was something I shamefully looked as an excuse or a cry for help but here I am sitting at my kitchen table … Continue reading Anxiety is for wimps
The phone call to say mum had a poorly brain
(See previous post first) Conversations on the phone & email messages got more & more bizarre. Mum had always been a little bit of a feisty one,had a strong opinion & had always analysed things a bit too much. But this was different, this was more intense, more kinda verging on the side of obsessive. … Continue reading The phone call to say mum had a poorly brain
Mental health (poorly brain) 