Well itās now 2024. How? Why? 2024 & in the same situation but only worse. This is unfair beyond belief. Itās cruel. The suffering my mum is experiencing is horrific & whilst she suffers, we suffer. How I am still here is quite literally beyond me. Strong? Determined? No, I think more like because I … Continue reading Hanging on by a thread š§µ
2020/21 what a shit you have been!
Well, none of us saw that coming did we? Which to be honest is a little naive on all our behalves. We knew this happens, has happened & would be due to happen again, so really itās āour badā that we took it for granted, a supposed āonce in a century eventā hit us all … Continue reading 2020/21 what a shit you have been!
today could change everything
Today we find out if my dad has beaten his cancer. Heās already beaten cancer, a melanoma when I was 13. Then he got other skin cancers which have gone on for the past 30 years and now he has one of the rarest cancers you could get. Nasopharyngeal squamous. Because of past radiotherapy and … Continue reading today could change everything
I messed up but itās ok
It has been way too long since I last blogged but I thought, seeing as Iām feeling the way I am, it is probably the time I should blog. Dealing with a loved one with mental health is extreme. Itās draining, heartbreaking, tiring, soul destroying and dare I say it, boring. Now, donāt get me … Continue reading I messed up but itās ok
36 missed calls
The day my mum tried to take her own life, I was viewing a house. I switched my phone on to silent whilst being shown around & chatting to the agent. When I came out I looked at my phone & I had 36 missed calls. Iāll always remember it was 36. I remember clearly … Continue reading 36 missed calls
What happens when your loved ones mental health causes your mental health?
So, you are dealing with a loved one with a severe mental illness. They have tried to take their life on 3 occasions, all with absolute intention Ā to actually die (not a cry for help as itās said) they survive, thankfully. They are sectioned on numerous occasions & their illness has been 11 years thus … Continue reading What happens when your loved ones mental health causes your mental health?
Mental health is for life not just for Christmas
So Christmas is, or at least should be a time for celebration, family, loved ones, gift giving, love & laughter right? For so many people itās a time of sadness, memories, depression & a very difficult period especially if you have a mental illness. It doesnāt matter how much you try to make it ok … Continue reading Mental health is for life not just for Christmas
The after effects of a suicide attempt
Apart from all the āfeelingsā a suicide attempt leaves loved ones with, what are the actual effects on the person who attempted it? Anyone who has attempted suicude & survived, has their own individual story. Even if two people have tried to take their lives in the same way, the lasting effects can be very … Continue reading The after effects of a suicide attempt
Touretteās, ocd & me
From around the age of 11, every time I saw an old person I had to say ābless youā out loud because if I didnāt they would die. I was sitting on the top deck of a bus on the way to college one day & was looking out of the window at all the … Continue reading Touretteās, ocd & me
judge your little heart out. I DONT CARE!
Letās face it, lots of people already think Iām a bit of a fruit loop, hectic, hyper, emotional. Thatās ok, they are right. I donāt take offence to any of these observations. Iām not trying to be anyone Iām not & nor do I want to be. One thing I have learnt dealing with my … Continue reading judge your little heart out. I DONT CARE!
Mental health (poorly brain) 