36 missed calls

The day my mum tried to take her own life, I was viewing a house. I switched my phone on to silent whilst being shown around & chatting to the agent. When I came out I looked at my phone & I had 36 missed calls. I’ll always remember it was 36. I remember clearly … Continue reading 36 missed calls →

What happens when your loved ones mental health causes your mental health?

So, you are dealing with a loved one with a severe mental illness. They have tried to take their life on 3 occasions, all with absolute intention to actually die (not a cry for help as it’s said) they survive, thankfully. They are sectioned on numerous occasions & their illness has been 11 years thus … Continue reading What happens when your loved ones mental health causes your mental health? →

Mental health is for life not just for Christmas

So Christmas is, or at least should be a time for celebration, family, loved ones, gift giving, love & laughter right? For so many people it’s a time of sadness, memories, depression & a very difficult period especially if you have a mental illness. It doesn’t matter how much you try to make it ok … Continue reading Mental health is for life not just for Christmas →

but why are you mad!??????

We all know that mental illness is due to a chemical imbalance in the brain but it doesn’t stop it from being frustrating. We know that it is due to this imbalance but we don’t know why or what triggers it. What makes the chemicals in our brain change what we do, think & how … Continue reading but why are you mad!?????? →

What helps YOU get through a loved ones mental illness? Do you have guilt?

In the beginning I was constantly on auto pilot 👩‍✈️ it wasn’t by choice, it was just how my brain was deciding to manage it all. When you have a loved one trying to escape from the house, run into the road & harm themselves at every opportunity, being on auto pilot is all you can … Continue reading What helps YOU get through a loved ones mental illness? Do you have guilt? →

Has your life driven you mad?

Have you ever had the feeling like someone has scribbled all over your brain? If not, just imagine your brain ticking along nicely, with clear thoughts, good head space & great perceptive & then all of a sudden thousands of tiny little brain people come out from their crevices armed with marker pens & scribble … Continue reading Has your life driven you mad? →

Help? What help??

So you've been diagnosed, or a loved one has been diagnosed, or you have a loved one showing signs of a metal illness, what do you do next? who do you turn to? This was the dilemma I was faced with. After having spent two days in France trying to find my mum & eventually locating her in the … Continue reading Help? What help?? →

Anxiety is for wimps

Fuck fuck fuck!!! fuck anxiety! FUCK IT!!! I never had anxiety before all this. I was pretty manic as that is my character but anxiety was something weak people had, not me. It was something I shamefully looked as an excuse or a cry for help but here I am sitting at my kitchen table … Continue reading Anxiety is for wimps →

I hate two words…

So, firstly let’s get something clear. If I have uttered the two words ‘mental’ & ‘health’ once, I’ve muttered them a trillion times. I don’t like those words, infact my distaste for them grows more intense daily. When I talk of this topic, unfortunately the only way to get to the point the fastest way … Continue reading I hate two words… →