but why are you mad!??????

We all know that mental illness is due to a chemical imbalance in the brain but it doesn’t stop it from being frustrating. We know that it is due to this imbalance but we don’t know why or what triggers it. What makes the chemicals in our brain change what we do, think & how … Continue reading but why are you mad!?????? →

the frustration of mentalhealth

help!!!!! Today wasn't a good day. It was even worse for my mum as she is after all the one who is going through this nightmare illness but I am there along side her trying to also deal with the side effects of it all. We visited the doctors, we needed to go in, get some antibiotics & … Continue reading the frustration of mentalhealth →

Remembrance day, anxiety & the calming pill

Today was rememberance day. A day to think of all our fallen hero’s & to mark 100 years since the end of the war. If it wasn’t already a sad enough day, it was made even more so by watching my mum struggle through the service because she was so anxious. Whilst we all stood, … Continue reading Remembrance day, anxiety & the calming pill →

Mental Illness & memories

I wish I could get inside my mums brain & have a little crawl about & explore what’s going on. I had a bad (horrific) back issue for 5 years, I remember thinking that I wished I could just open up the centre of my back & have a look to see what was … Continue reading Mental Illness & memories →

are you embarrassed by their mental illness?

Are you embarrassed by your friend/loved one/colleague? why be embarrassed? Why worry about what anyone thinks? Ask yourself WHY would you be embarrassed because a person is in a total state of despair & obviously having a really bad time. Are YOU that important? Are you so worried about your image that you can’t possibly … Continue reading are you embarrassed by their mental illness? →

are you really, truthfully ill???

My mum went to see Bohemian Rhapsody. She went to the local cinema with my dad, can you believe that? It might seem like a normal thing, an easy task, something no one would write home about, but this is HUGE! I will shamefully put my hands up & say I was one of those … Continue reading are you really, truthfully ill??? →

stop the world I want to get off!!!!

Days like today I just want everyone to fuck off. Sorry to be blunt but that’s real life. I don’t have my own life, not fully, it’s dictated to me. Some might say that is my fault & I could change it if I wanted to which isn’t necessarily true. Yes, I could stop going … Continue reading stop the world I want to get off!!!! →

Mushrooms & death

The man in the white van was waiting for her, waiting for an opportunity to kill her. Earlier she had seen the Nun from the nearby Covent, she was carrying a gun under her habit. The postman days before had tried to get into her flat, he had banged on her window demanding she let … Continue reading Mushrooms & death →

What is it like inside an asylum?

We don’t call them asylums anymore but we may as well. The name asylum fits the description so much better than ‘ward’. A ward to me symbolisms a hospital type place with clean washed floors, neatly made beds & patients sitting in chairs next to them, or tucked up with clean white sheets up around … Continue reading What is it like inside an asylum? →

Mental illness? Pull yourself together & trust me!!!

When someone is constantly anxious it becomes the new norm. But it also takes it out of the person with them. I have been guilty of telling my mum to ‘Pull herself together’ on numerous occasions. I feel absolutely shit for saying this! I only have to look on the face of the cartoon characters … Continue reading Mental illness? Pull yourself together & trust me!!! →