Hanging on by a thread 🧵

Well it’s now 2024. How? Why? 2024 & in the same situation but only worse. This is unfair beyond belief. It’s cruel. The suffering my mum is experiencing is horrific & whilst she suffers, we suffer. How I am still here is quite literally beyond me. Strong? Determined? No, I think more like because I … Continue reading Hanging on by a thread 🧵 →

36 missed calls

The day my mum tried to take her own life, I was viewing a house. I switched my phone on to silent whilst being shown around & chatting to the agent. When I came out I looked at my phone & I had 36 missed calls. I’ll always remember it was 36. I remember clearly … Continue reading 36 missed calls →

What happens when your loved ones mental health causes your mental health?

So, you are dealing with a loved one with a severe mental illness. They have tried to take their life on 3 occasions, all with absolute intention to actually die (not a cry for help as it’s said) they survive, thankfully. They are sectioned on numerous occasions & their illness has been 11 years thus … Continue reading What happens when your loved ones mental health causes your mental health? →

Mental health is for life not just for Christmas

So Christmas is, or at least should be a time for celebration, family, loved ones, gift giving, love & laughter right? For so many people it’s a time of sadness, memories, depression & a very difficult period especially if you have a mental illness. It doesn’t matter how much you try to make it ok … Continue reading Mental health is for life not just for Christmas →

The after effects of a suicide attempt

Apart from all the ‘feelings’ a suicide attempt leaves loved ones with, what are the actual effects on the person who attempted it? Anyone who has attempted suicude & survived, has their own individual story. Even if two people have tried to take their lives in the same way, the lasting effects can be very … Continue reading The after effects of a suicide attempt →

Tourette’s, ocd & me

From around the age of 11, every time I saw an old person I had to say “bless you” out loud because if I didn’t they would die. I was sitting on the top deck of a bus on the way to college one day & was looking out of the window at all the … Continue reading Tourette’s, ocd & me →

judge your little heart out. I DONT CARE!

Let’s face it, lots of people already think I’m a bit of a fruit loop, hectic, hyper, emotional. That’s ok, they are right. I don’t take offence to any of these observations. I’m not trying to be anyone I’m not & nor do I want to be. One thing I have learnt dealing with my … Continue reading judge your little heart out. I DONT CARE! →

but why are you mad!??????

We all know that mental illness is due to a chemical imbalance in the brain but it doesn’t stop it from being frustrating. We know that it is due to this imbalance but we don’t know why or what triggers it. What makes the chemicals in our brain change what we do, think & how … Continue reading but why are you mad!?????? →

Remembrance day, anxiety & the calming pill

Today was rememberance day. A day to think of all our fallen hero’s & to mark 100 years since the end of the war. If it wasn’t already a sad enough day, it was made even more so by watching my mum struggle through the service because she was so anxious. Whilst we all stood, … Continue reading Remembrance day, anxiety & the calming pill →

Mental Illness & memories

I wish I could get inside my mums brain & have a little crawl about & explore what’s going on. I had a bad (horrific) back issue for 5 years, I remember thinking that I wished I could just open up the centre of my back & have a look to see what was … Continue reading Mental Illness & memories →